Watch out! That's.. HULK!!

I finally decided to just make this blog some sort of a diary-blog. I will frequently update this blog using my blackberry, by email. I used to use a journal, and I'll write it everyday but ah I'm too lazy to write. Let's blame technology for that.

Monday, 15th November will be Bayu's birthday and all of his 'so-called' daughters are planning on giving him a surprise. We're all gonna go to his apartment at midnight with cakes and presents. Actually I planned on making him a handmade arc reactor but unfortunately I don't have enough time. So I'm just gonna give him a really cool HULK theme cake :D plus a scrapbook from his daughters, with 'happy birthday' picture signs and wishes from all of us. Well yea since not all of his daughters live in jakarta, we agreed that this would be the best way. So next morning imma make the cake, then at afternoon Irene, Mega and Misyella will come over to my house and we'll finish the scrapbook together. Then chow to his apt by cab around 11pm. I hope this will all go well /:

Now I don't know what clothes to wear. I thought I'll just go simple, using a black skinny jeans and a tee, but when I tried it on.. It just makes me look fat. I tried several other clothes.. And I still look fat in them. Fyi: I haven't really eat anything these past 3 days. Haven't weigh in either. Planning to do it tomorrow, I just hope this fasting is worth it /:

By the way I just dyed my hair back to dark brown today, it looks pretty good :) I hope it'll still look good tomorrow lol. Geez its still 8:30 and I'm sleepy already. Maybe I better go sleep and save energy for tomorrow.

Nightnight

"Love was a rythm, a resonance, a reverberation. 
Love was awkward and foolish. 
It was aggressive and simple.  
And possesed of so many indefinable qualities it could never be conveyed in language.

Love is blind." - R.J. Ellroy

Miko's Birthday!!

AHA! its the day i've been waiting for.. its Miko's birthday!

I did made the Ben10 themed cake for him, it took a loooooooooot of work to get that cake done. And it was a rush too cause i have to get it done before 6pm, before Miko gets to my house. And it was all worth it :)

Baking From Scratch

Out of the oven!

Mom helping me with the fondant

The cake is done!!

He came to my house at 7-ish PM, we talked and snuggle a lot, until then the clock pointed at 11.50 PM. The taxi he called before had arrived, so i told him to go out and tell the taxi driver to wait until 12.15 AM. While he was going outside, i took the cake box out of my cupboard. Also taking out the candles and a match. And then he came into the room, we both couldn't stop smiling, i know he's so excited to see the cake, and i'm so excited to see his reaction as well!

"Okay.. so.. here's your cake.. i hope you like it hehe" *opening the box slowly

And when he saw the cake, he was like "OH MY GOD MICKEY!!! OMG!! THIS IS AWESOOMEE!!!!!", he hugged me tight so many times, also kissed me dozens of times while saying thank you. Hahaha! I can see it from his face he was so happy. He loveeess ben10, and he always wanted a fondant cake, so i could tell he must be so happy. He touched the smooth fondant surface while looking at the cake. Then a thought came into my head.. "what if he doesnt even know that this is an omnitrix.. i'll be devastated".. i gulped, then i asked him "Do you know what this is?", he answered, "OFCOURSE!!!!!! ITS AN OMNITRIX OH MY GOD MICKEY THANK YOU SO MUCH! THIS IS AWESOME!" hahaha

Green-Black layers he loved

We only took a few pictures because he's pretty much in rush the cab was waiting already and he needs to get home soon cause his family is waiting for him as well. So i gave him a knife, telling him to cut a slice. He cutted a BIG slice of the cake, and when he saw the green-black layers of cake, i could tell he was amazed as well. Hahaha. I shove a big spoonfull of the cake onto his mouth lol and he closed his eyes as he chew, and with a full mouth he said "Omg Mickey this is PERFECT. I LOVE IT! Now my turn!" He fed me a biiiig spoon of the cake, the cream went allover my lips, the cake was a success. It was really good, except for the cream which i dont really like. Then he fed me another spoon of the cake and said "you must eat this Mickey! Just dont purge it okayyyy" i was a bit surprised he said that, i love how he cares so much about me.

I packed the cake in a tupperware so that it would fit in his backpack. Then after LOAAADSSS of kisses, hugs, and 'thank you's, he went home with a big grin. I love seing him that happy!

Too bad didn't manage to get the sun jar done in time, cause i haven't got the time to buy the stuffs i'll need and to put it all together. But i'll get it done soon, hope he likes it.

Well, to my dearest boyfriend, happy belated birthday. You mean the world to me. You must know how special you are, and that i'm so proud of you. Don't let anyone get you down, Miko. Whatever happens i'm with you :) i love you Miko! Happy birthday!

Look how happy this birthday boy is!

Oh! Also, thanks to Mom! She helped a lot on this cake, teaching me this and that. Without her help, the cake wont be that awesome. Thank you mommy!

Our 1st Anniversary

Me and Miko's first anniversary has came, gosh time goes by so fast. Its been a year already.

As you read in my former posts, we both had planned to bake a rainbow cake together at our 1st anniversary. Once he found the recipe, we both agree that he'll bring the butter while i provide the other ingredients for the cake. I asked him what time he'll come to my house and he replied "I'll head there around 12". It takes about 45 minutes from his house to mine, so i asuume that he'll arrive at my house around 1pm. But eventually, he showed up at 3 PM, left me almost crying waiting for him. It sucks when your boyfriend is 2 HOURS late on your 1st anniversary celebration.

But despite being pissed because his 'late-ness', everything was fun. He knocked at my window several times, and there, i saw him standing outside with his new maroon 'campus' jacket and his new tom ford spectacles. To be honest.. i was amazed. He looked really really fine that day. I waited for a moment then he came into my room, came across the bed where i was laying on and kissed me on the cheek "Happy anniversary" he said. I was about to give him the silent treatment for being late, but i always failed. I kissed him back on the cheek and replied "Happy anniversary, i love you too".

Tom Ford Specs

We started baking the cake at 7pm, while max is going tarawih, and Mom, Dante, and bude was shopping at the grocery. The recipe called for 1,5 cups of flour, and since i used a digital scale, i asked "How much is 1 cup of flour?" "225grams", he replied. While it was actually 140 grams. D'oh. Because of the wrong measurements, the batter turned out to be super sticky and heavy hahaha.

After that, we divided the batter into 5 in different bowls, and put different colorings in each bowl. This is where the fun starts! We keep on saying "Vibrant vibrant vibrant" in a funny way, and that he added so much coloring into the purple batter, it just made everything even funnier.

In doubt of the succesfullness of the  cake, we keep moving on. We layered abstractly an 18 inch round pan with the colorful batters, switching colors. Also, during the process, i accidentally cutted my thumb with a knife and burnt my finger too -_-

Ouch

Then about 45 minutes later we took the cake out of the oven and started laughing cause the cake was so hard and heavy hahaha! Despite of the failure it still looks nice though. So instead of making a new cake which will take a lot of time, we decided to make a glaze for the cake. I accidentally added too much vanilla essence into the glaze mixture so the smell was very very strong lol. We poured the glaze on top of the cake, then added some colorful sprinkles.

We brought the cake into my room and placed a small yellow candle in the middle of it. We lit the candle up, then before we blew the candle and sliced the cake, we took a picture with his polaroid camera. And also some pictures taken using his phone. He cutted a BIG slice of cake, and we could see the beautiful colors of the cake, we cant stop admiring it that i took about 6 pictures of the cake alone in various angles lol.

Preeetty

The rainbow cake

The cake wasnt bad.. But not that good either, it was so hard and sweet and milky that we only managed to eat half of the slice. I packed a half of the cake for him to bring home, although i doubt that he'll eat that cake again lol

Not long after that we cuddled in bed talking about things while waiting for the taxi he ordered to come. Thenn.. he went home and thats all. It was fun, SO FUN that i couldn't stop smiling before going to sleep.

What can i say? I love you Miko :)

Happy Face :D

Woo Omnitrix it is

2 days away from me and bf's first year anniversary! We both are planning to bake a rainbow cake together at my house, ahh this should be fun! Cant wait!

Rainbow Cake

And then 2 days from that is his birthday, gosh i'm so excited, but also super worried because i haven't build his sunjar /: I hope i'll get it ready on time. Another problem is that he's coming over at 2nd September, and again at 3rd to celebrate his birthday at midnight. So, when can i bake HIS birthday cake? I want the cake to be a surprise. I've told him to come over at afternoon so that i have enough time to bake his cake. But another problem is how the hell am i going to hide the cake from my brothers! If max sees this 'catchy' birthday cake, he wont be able to keep his friggin gob shutted. So i guess i will have to make it at midnight or early eaarrllyyy in the morning, and hide the cake inside my closet. Geez.
I got the idea for his birthday cake last noght, the cake would be green-black layered cake, covered with fondant, shaped like an omnitrix. Why? 1. He always wanted a fondant cake. 2nd. He LOVES Ben10.
I know i know.. He's like 21 years old and he likes Ben10 lol

Ben10 Omnitrix

Well actually i wanted to give him a wallet made from a computer keyboard. He just got into college, majoring IT, so it would be a perfect unique gift for him. Since his wallet is so.. Damaged. Rippen apart. I have no idea why he still use it. But unfortunately i dont have enough money to buy a keyboard right now. Pity me. I'll get my fee around next month. I'll definitely make one for him, maybe for a christmas gift if i can stand not being annoyed by his ugly wallet lol. Trust me, the wallet IS that ugly. I'll post the picture sometime else.

Wallet made from a cumputer keyboard

Woo, gotta go shopping with Momster, byebye!
xoxo, Michelle

Let me knock you out with just one touch

Its officially 9:14 am here in Jakarta, and i'm educating myself using the internet. I'm learning about Dim Mak or The Touch Of Death and trying to memorize all the level 1 pressure points. I'm too lazy to explain about what Dim Mak is so i've provide you with that link. Since i have no one to practice with, so i try every pressure on my own body. At some points it hurts like hell, at level 2 pressure points it only gives you reflex and others. So yeah right now my body is in pretty much pain LOL. But its worth it. ;ater when my boyfriend comes i'll do some pressure points on him >:D Muahahaha. Maybe one day i'll master all the pressure points so i can knock out all those ugly little bitchy girls with just one touch. Awesome much. You know i've been having this BIG urge to watch Star Wars, shame on me i've never watched it before. I'm going to save up some money and buy all of the episodes on DVD and have a marathon.. accompanied by diet coke and poprocks and candies and e-cigs.. Ok that definitely sound perfect to me.

E-cigarette.. My new best friend.Yes i've been smoking this. Its a so-called-healthy-cigarettes-which-clearly-is-a-bullshit i bought for Mom as her birthday present, but she never really used it (which kinda brakes my heart cuz i've been saving up money to buy this little fucking cigarette) so i took over this without my Mom realizing it. Oh well, i enjoy it. They come up with variety of cartridge flavors like chocolate, mint, bubblegum, grape, apple, peppermint, vanilla, and a bunch more. It kills the boredom i use to eat with. 

E-Cigarettes

It's fun actually, tastes nice hehee. I'm planning on buying more cartridge refill flavors, like chocolate and peppermint because i heard mint kills your cravings :D
Mom is making a traditional food called "Pisang Ijo", it looked terrible, i'll post the pic later. It looks like a big green granade-sized shits LOL but well i aint digging in :)

Quick update, and yes, i'm still a big fat failure

Its supper time, i'm trying my best to fast starting now. It is 4:21 am here. aiming at least 24 hours. Mom is being so annoying, ugh i hate her for forcing me to do stuffs i dont want to. Like, okay, i done acting and all the shits you wanted me to do, and i just DONT WANT TO SING! And she still forces me to. Like wtf i hate it! So much, i wanna cry. She doesnt have a clue what she've done to me, where do you think i got caught in this eating disorder if it's wasn't because of the entertainment thingy i've been shitting allover on. Urgh. 

Oh well.. I hope everything gets better soon. I WILL REFUSE to do all the singing blah blah blah thingy, ofcourse. 

By the way here's a pic of the Nastar Cookie i made.

Nastar Cookies

"Hey! It's science!."

These wonderful nail polishes CHANGE COLOR based on your body temperature, your mood, the heat of your latte, the chill of your iced tea ofcourse! And they will continue changing back and forth as long as you wear them. In The Mood Polish is sensitive to heat, so it will change colors on your nails.

The polish is $8 a piece and comes in variety of cool colors. I WANT ONE!

Sunjar for my sunshine

Miko's birthday is coming, and i think i'm going to give him this..

Sunjar

 A sunjar. Don't know what a sunjar is? it is a solar light, in a jar. It gets energy from the sun during day, and lights up at night. You get it don't you? No? Okay it goes like this,

 Now you get it right. It is cool, i know. I've been planning to make one of these for him since a long time ago. Well, my boyfriend.. He's kind of the geeky type, and i know he'll love eco-friendly cool stuffs. Considering he's going to get his own room, i bet he'll love this. Especially this thing is going to be HOMEMADE (read: Me. Make it. Myself.) 
This will be fun :)

By the way, my fast is going well. Even though this night i woke up and ate 3 pieces of dates and some grass jelly (1 calorie), i've burned a lot doing crunches and jumping jacks. And today Mom is going to make some Nastars, a bit worried i may give in, but im feeling really strong today. I hope everything goes well :)

Will update, xoxo

Tea, Coffee and Diet Coke

Its Ramadan, the month where moslems fast everyday for 30 days straight. They wake up at midnight to eat, and fast for more than 12 hours until they can break their fast at the evening. I’ve been looking forward to this month, because this is the time where I can fast without having people bitching about me not eating. It’s the 7^th day of fasting, and fuck it, I haven’t even skip any break-fasting. But at least I always purge when I binge.

 I broke my fast today at 12 with a sour strap and some skittles without anyone knowing it. Ugh. I’ve been enjoying Sour Straps so much, its one of my favorite candies after poprocks and gummybears. Too bad they don’t sell them in this country. Well they have those local brand poprocks, I’ll consider to buy those in order to satisfy my cravings. Besides they are only 35 calories per package. Not bad.

Sour Straps

P

Poprocks

For fucks sake I reallllllyyy need to lose weight fast. I have a movie to do after Ramadan. I cant have this fat suit on me!

Okay. New diet plan.

Skip midnight supper.

Have max 300 calories at break-fasting. I cant skip this cause my Mom and others will notice it, I’ll definitely try to stay under 300/day.

Do at LEAST 150 crunches every night. And most of all..

AVOID BINGING!

I just noticed a bulimia mark on the back of my right hand. Which I used to push down my throat to gag myself. It’s right on the back of my hand, down the index finger, theres a red mark caused by my upper teeth that scratched it everytime I gag myself. Fuck it.

Oh, found this sweetener, it made my day :)

No Calorie Sweetener

Things that give me pleasure

When my boyfriend tickles me, when we snuggle, when he hugs me tight

Knowing an answer of a question

My mother and brother’s happiness

Sleepovers

Knowing i've lost weight

Candies

Breaking my fast during Ramadan

Being able to touch my toe

Cold and windy days

Riding busses

Fitting into new smaller jeans

Curling my hair

Petting a dog

Snuggling under the blanket in a cold room

Little kisses on my neck and cheeks

Those two hands around my waist

Updating my journal

Theme park, fair, the circus

Coasters. The wind. The rush.

Applying body lotions


Having pale skin

Mom’s homemade cookies

Staring at him while he’s asleep

Rubbing my ear and eyebrows

Eating with my hands

Smooth shaved legs

When his family finished my cookies

Not eating anything

Playground. The colors. The swing.

Bracelets

You.

The cycle goes like..

Here goes the first post

I'm Michelle Coates. Turning 16 this november. A candy-coffee addict with EDNOS. Obsessed with calories. Enjoy cooking. Have a wonderful boyfriend. Hum..
I dont know what else to write on my first post. Basically this blog will be my diary. Soooo catcha soon, blogity-blog :)